When Chazal describe the mood of the yamim noraim, they portray the scene of a scale. On one side the scale is weighing a person’s mitzvos and on the other side his aveiros. The simple explanation is that one side weighs a person’s good deeds, while the other side weighs a person’s misdeeds. Whichever way the scale tips is the way that person chose to conduct himself the previous year. The scale of a beinini is even; both his good deeds and his misdeeds are equal.
The apparent question is, does Hashem really need a scale to see how many mitzvos or aveiros a person has done? If a person has four quarters sprawled out on a table, would he need to count each individual quarter out loud to confirm that it totals a dollar? Certainly not; the same is true by Hashem. He knows everything, so why the need for the scale?
The Beis HaLevi answers with an idea for all of us to think about.
The pasuk in Koheles (7; 29) says “Hashem made man straight and they sought many cheshbonos.” Rav Chaim Volozhiner expounds on this and explains as follows. At the time Hashem created Adam he was created straight; he had no inclination, from his own perspective, to do any bad. He was able to ‘choose’ bad, but had no desire to do any bad. However, when the snake seduced him into committing a sin, Adam was then infused with an influence from an outside source (i.e. yetzer hara). The gemarah in Shabbos (146) says that from that moment on, man was instilled with a natural ‘inside’ inclination that draws us to do aveiros.
On the other hand, we also have a neshoma that pushes us to act properly. Therefore, a person is born with two equal forces each pulling in the opposite direction. As a person grows in this world, he has the ability to create inclinations; if he portrays good actions then he strengthens the yetzer tov thereby creating a desire to do what is good; or vice versa is also true.
Through his actions a person has the ability to create new inclinations. Says the Beis HaLevi, this is p’shat in the scale. When the scale is leaning towards one side it doesn’t necessarily mean that this person did more mitzvos. Rather, it shows which way a person is naturally inclined to bend! Is this the type of person who is a ruchniyos type of person and who looks to help others and learn or is he chas v’shalom, a person who doesn’t care about others and always has excuses why he can’t learn? Which side is the scale tipping? A person can create a new ‘tevah’; a new natural desire-through his actions. A beinini is a person who is drawn in both directions and has an equal inclination to do good and bad. On Yom Kippur, a person is judged by which way his natural ‘tevah’ draws him.
The Rambam and Rabbeinu Yona write that a person has to have charata, have disgust and pain when doing teshuva for his sins.
There are two questions of the Rambam and Rabbeinu Yona. Firstly, why does one require feeling pain? Secondly, what type of pain should one have?
The answer is that through this pain and remorse, one will have removed his natural draw to sin, because he views his old ways as repulsive and disgusting. When something is disgusting you won’t go near it; causing a person to stay further away from sinning. The day of Yom Kippur is so special that the moment a person says that he has charata, Hashem cleanses him. As the pasuk says ‘lifnei Hashem teet-haru’. That is how special the day is.
Part of our avodah on Yom Kippur is to try and remove our natural draw that causes us to sin; to get rid of our inner yetzer hara. We start by asking Hashem to forgive us and by admitting our flaws and showing remorse to the Ribono Shel Olam. Then He starts by cleansing us and we hope and have full faith that He will ultimately be mechaper us-bringing us back to our original state-when we had no inner draw to do bad. On such a level we can be sure that we will be able to focus totally on serving Hashem in the Bayis shlishi. May Hashem grant this to us this coming year together with Moshiach b’mheira v’yameinu, Amen.
Wishing everyone a Gmar Chasima Tova and a gut gebentched yur.
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